So
it's getting really cold here, as hinted by the title. It's also
raining really badly today. And has been since yesterday afternoon. It's
also windy. Very windy. So that's fun.
Anyway, this week
has been an interesting week. We met with Nick a few times, and the
meetings went well, but he sent us a text the other day telling us that
he still would like to meet up, but that he doesn't want to talk about
religion anymore. So we're going to follow up with that.
Other than
that, we met with a friend of Elder G, whereat we were served some
really good food and invited them to come back to church after several
years of inactivity, which he did, by having us pick him up in the
morning. So we were at his house two hours before church to bring him
there.
By the way, Elder G was really sick while we did this. He
was apparently up all night vomiting, and he said he woke me up to help
him or something, and I replied (in Romanian) "Leave me alone, I want to
dream, let me sleep." But here's the kicker -- I didn't do that! I
never woke up that night at all. That means I was sleep talking! And
it's actually not the first time he's told me I sleep talk! Although the
last few times it was in English, but this time I answered in Romanian,
in my sleep! So that was weird.
And other than that, this week has
been kind of bland. I've been refamiliarizing myself with my guitar, and
I actually feel like I play better now than I did before! Haha
something about absence makes the heart grow fonder maybe?
And now some sad news, we just found out that someone from our MTC group has gone home! We're all really sad about that. Our group was really close and we all miss him. No one saw it coming either. Nor does anyone know why! He was always one of the most upbeat out of all of us. It's weird that he's not out here anymore.
And now some sad news, we just found out that someone from our MTC group has gone home! We're all really sad about that. Our group was really close and we all miss him. No one saw it coming either. Nor does anyone know why! He was always one of the most upbeat out of all of us. It's weird that he's not out here anymore.
It's been making me think about why I'm
here, what I'm doing, and why I'm staying out here. And I realized that
ever since I entered the MTC, I haven't had the thought to go home.
Sure, homesickness has been there, I miss all of my family very much,
and my friends and possessions and all that jazz, but I realized that
since I've had the title of "Elder," my perspectives and focuses have
changed.
I was worried before the MTC that it would be really hard for
me to be away from the lifestyle that I was used to; going to school,
working, goofing around on technology, wasting time one the internet and
tv, but from day one, I haven't had a single problem with that. The
first few days of nonstop study and work were a change, for sure, but I
was never hindered by a desire to be anywhere else. It's hard for me to
even think back to my life before the MTC. My mind is out here, and
that's where it needs to be. I've been learning so much about being
proactive and making things happen instead of just wasting my time. I
still have a ridiculously long way to go to get where I want to be, but
progress has been and is still being made.
The Gospel changes
people. I've seen that happen out here. Even though a lot of people out
here aren't interested at all, there are those who are, and when they
apply the gospel principles in their lives, they change so much for the
better. But here's the important part: for those who don't want to
change, who don't want to be better, they never will. I've had
companions, seen members, and even seen myself in this position of being
too comfortable in the position I was in. But when I say "I want to be
better," find a way to do so, and act on it, I better myself.
I've
learned that you need to never, EVER, be satisfied with the kind of
person you currently are. Even the greatest people on the planet still
have room for improvement. And I've been learning that if I want to
touch the hearts of the people in this country, I need to be the best me
that I can. It's hard.
Right now I'm with a companion who, whether he
knows it or not, is helping me in a few ways. I'm learning with him that
if I want to see change, I need to address my problems head on, rather
than being content with the way things are, and letting people walk over
me. I'm still trying to apply these principles, but I'm progressing.
I
guess that's the thing I've recognized most since being out here, is
that although the main and really single purpose of missionary work is
to bring souls unto Christ, I can't do that if I'm not the best that I
can be, because I need to be a representative of the perfect person. So
every day I try to improve myself a little more. It's hard. I'm only
starting to come to this realization and it's hard to push past my
comfort zone. But it needs to be done if I want to be the best
missionary, and by extension the best person I can be. And it's not just
something having to do with missionary work.The principles I'm trying
to apply to myself are such that I always want to keep in my mind and
work on, because we are always representatives of Christ, so we should
always try to push ourselves to be better.
Haha I guess this letter has
turned more into a self help seminar, but I've just been thinking on
this subject a lot lately. But I just feel so strongly about this, that
we need to keep pushing ourselves past what we feel is comfortable, to
better ourselves.
Okay well now that my incoherent ramblings
are over, here's a weird factoid about where I'm serving: Adult
rollerblading is a huge thing out here. Every time we go to a park, we
see dozens of them. There are some who take it really, really seriously
and go really fast and do tricks and stuff and I feel like I'm living in
the 90s.
Now here's some proof that I'm not starving myself:
I made nutella cookies with homemade frosting to make homemade nutella oreosand they were so good that I ate them all at once... |
Also, poorly lit picture of my new guitar and me |
Okay bafta!
-Elder DeGraw
(p.s. I printed off all of your letters and I'll try to respond to them all next week! Love you all!)